Another day of nice weather, but dark thoughts and memories.
I found myself arguing with THE LORD and murmuring, remembering that HE doesn‘t like murmuring at all.
Maybe I was murmuring a little less today than I was before or than I usually am.
I was never a truly happy person – not before I was saved and also not after – maybe more at peace… but happy?
Not happyning 😆
And yet, I am as happy as never before, every day is a little better than the day before ( well, perhaps not every day, but there is a clear theme of upwards movement on the scale and of steady improvement) since I‘ve been walking as close as I possibly can with THE LORD.
So I may not be happy, but I wouldn‘t want it any other way, wouldn‘t want to be anywhere else wouldn‘t want to do anything but what HE tells me to do.
When I got to my destination of the day today, I decided to read a bit in my new bible and I stumbled across Hebrews 12.
If you‘re ever in the mood of arguing with YOUR FATHER, like I was today, read that chapter! It brought me to tears. It is about love, about the love of a father who chastens his children. And about serving GOD.
And another scripture came to mind: surely, it is true that I am not happy and I am not getting a lot of what I pray and ask for – I can imagine many possible reasons for that and I may explore them further with you, my friend, in a different post… but what I’m getting at is:
Where else could I possibly go?
What else could I possibly do?
And believe me, I have gone astray many times and in many ways! I would chastise me if I was my father!!!
Yet, the more I am absolutely certain that what the disciples said in John 6:68 – 69 is THE TRUTH
Lord, to whom shall we go? Thou hast the words of eternal life. And we believe and are sure that thou art that Christ, the Son of The Living God.
Amen, amen and amen!
So what else? Where else? To whom else?
From what I know, there is no option, no alternative – and besides, if GOD doesn’t want you to be happy at this point in your life (in my life), than it is so and NOBODY else and NOTHING else could succeed if they had other plans.
HE is the only one who can grant or not grant happiness, give or give not a happy life.
So either HE decides I will be happy or I won’t be.
So walking it is.
As usual, I hope and pray that some of this can inspire, heal or amuse you. And that THE LORD may bless you richly in all areas of your life, that HE may keep you and shine HIS face upon you. In JESUS’ name I pray. Amen.